foxy foxes...

I can't get this song out of my head.  I've been trying to embrace dancing, some day I might even do it in public.  But for now I really love dancing around my room to this song.  I'm sure it helps that the lead singer is an actual fox, but foxes are sure to be on regular rotation for some time.

this pretty much sums it up...

I've thought about how to say the way that I'm feeling about all of this and for now I think that these pretty much sum it up. 

**there are swears**

I wish I could jump on the typical bandwagon for this type of situation and be angry or say mean things about him, but I can't.  I'm better than that and so is he.  Maybe it's not the end forever, but it's the end for now, more than anything I miss my friend.

i'm kind of amazing...

For the last few days I've felt a bit down.  I know that I've posted about the joys of not having a full time job, but there is a real downside to it too.  That side being, rejection.

Remember when you were a kid and your parents would tell you things like "you're wonderful to me and that's all that matters." Except they were your parents so it didn't really count or make you feel better?  I do.

I've been applying for jobs left and right but still no luck.  I know that this is a hard time to be looking for a job, but it's still really discouraging.  A few weeks I found a job that I would be perfect for, literally the job announcement was like reading my cv.  I was more than qualified, but they ended up hiring internally.  You can't really beat an internal hire, but still the rejection hurt.  I wanted to send a follow up email which said something like " Excuse me, but are you insane?!?"  I decided against it.

So yeah, that's happening and I'm trying to not let it get me down, but it is hard.  In addition to that, having a part-part time job it means that I've got little to no money coming into my bank account.  So I mostly spend my time trying to not spend money.  This means I'm spending a lot of time in my room doing online photoshop tutorials, reading and whatnot.  I know that I'll be glad to have had this time to enjoy myself before my life gets busy again but right now in the moment it's hard to appreciate.  I take comfort in these wise words.

via

i make the same mistakes...

The Echo Friendly what's not to love about this band.  They were recently featured on a new show I enjoy and from the second I heard the lyrics I could identify.  Have a listen and enjoy.

dear emily...

Dear Emily,

Remember when I worked at Old Navy and you went to Mexico and after you got back you came to visit me at work to tell me that you liked Dan, the man who would one day become your husband?  Remember that time your husband tired to surprise you with a trip to come and visit me in London for your birthday, but then I spoiled the surprise just before he was going to tell you?    Remember how you always give me great advice and help me to keep a calm and level head?  Remember how much you love Holmes and Watson and how I in turn love them too? Remember Mr. Moren? Remember how we don't have any good photos of the two of us together?  Remember when you and Nic visited me in Seattle because I missed you both so much? Remember when you came over for the first time and played "Queen of the Surface Streets" for me for the very first time?  Remember when I cried in your car?  Remember when we would go to Lunaberry a million nights in a row?  Remember when we all went to the midnight showing of Heathers and I moved at the last second so that you and Dan could sit next to each other?  Remember that time you moved to New York and I came to visit you?  Remember how every time we get together we have a great time?  Remember how much I enjoy talking with you on skype?

Really? Me too.  I love you!

Happy Birthday

retraction...

Sometimes admitting that you were wrong is hard.  The other day I was listening to my favorite podcast, This American Life.  It was a follow up story about a story they had previously aired, which was filled with inaccuracies and false information.

It was a tense broadcast and it felt slightly uncomfortable to listen to it.  The guy who had presented the story was scolded and understood that what he'd done was wrong and out of line.  You can listen to the whole thing below.

Like I said before admitting you did something wrong is hard.  You can only do so much to set things right and once you've done that all you can do is sit back and hope for forgiveness.

last minute getaway...

The downside of being without a real job, besides the lack of paycheck is that I spend a lot of time trying not to spend money.  This means that I don't leave the house a lot.  A few days after my sister and the ladies left I was presented with the opportunity to fly to the Caribbean for a FREE vacation.  Since it had been raining for nearly 2 weeks straight I jumped at the chance.  I couldn't repack my bags fast enough.

I flew from London to Paris and then on to St. Maarten. At some point in the trip we flew to a smaller island and then before I knew it, it was all over.  I had the most delightful time and I was so thankful for the opportunity.  I came back feeling relaxed and rested, I'd read TWO books and had a tan.  It helped pass the time and if you are looking for a way to pass the time, then this is for sure the way to go.